that's it

Yesterday I laughed when my agent sent me the details about a job. It was a commercial for an undisclosed birth control pill and for an undisclosed amount of remuneration. I mean I haven't had contact with my agency for a year and the first job they've sent me to is a birth control pill commercial? I get it, I'm an out of demand model who hasn't had work for so long now that she can't remember the last time she got a job.


But if you think that I'm that desperate that I'll take up any work, you're out of your mind.

Ok I learnt the lines of the script and went along to the audition today anyway. As with almost all auditions/castings of my life, I totally screwed it up. Majorly. They wanted someone who could speak with an American accent (it was for the American market) so they asked me to do an intro about myself with the accent. I got nervous and any accents I've felt silly enough to speak in started popping out, I could hear myself mixing Scottish and French and American accents all in a mumble jumble. And if that wasn't bad enough, when it came to the actual reading of the lines, I totally forgot them. Way to go, hunh.

The thing that irritated me the most was that the casting agent lady was so nice about it, she kept complimenting on little non-important things like "oh I like the way you did with your hands" (All I did was keeping them my pockets!) and "your smile is really nice" (this one was just lame!)

She shouldn't have been so nice to give me false hopes! Ok, I know I did terribly and you being nice is just going to make it that much worse because it'll give me false hopes and I'll be that much more disappointed when I won't get the job.

Sorry, I'm just being bitchy coz I'm such a miserable failure. The lady was genuinely nice and I'm actually grateful for that since she could've been so much more nasty about it. Still, it irritates me.

Bloody hell, I'm just gonna quit it. I've never did well at modelling, didn't even attempt to act for a second, why should I try now? I'll just stick to being plain old me. No more castings, no more running around town trying to find obscure audition locations. That's it.

I'm throwing in the proverbial towel and calling it quits.

5100

I'm doing a major in marketing, probably go into advertising (don't give me that look, marketing as a major is just as good as finance or economics or accounting. I don't know why a certain someone laughed when I told them that I was majoring in marketing. She laughed! in my face!)

Anyways I came across this advertising competition on Adkungfu for people who would like the chance to intern at one of the big 4 advertising agencies in China. I know, I know, I live in NZ and haven't been back to China in like 6 years, but I'd just like to see how far I can get with my little ideas.

You have to come up with preferrably a print ad, advertising 5100, a brand of minteral water from Tibet. The focus is on the pureness and the distinctiveness of the brand, with a message of this pureness in this unpure world. I thought it'd be pretty easy, you know slap a picture of the mineral water on some etheral looking Tibetan scenery and put a witty slogan beside it. Well, obviously dozens or so others had the same idea as me, and did just that. Here's one of them:
Damn it, they got there before me. So then I thought I could do a cool image of where you put the bottle of mineral water in the middle of a metropolitan city but through the bottle you see the clean nice bustling city but all around the bottle its kinda dull and dirty. you know, the idea of pureness in an unpure world. Well, someone else kinda got the same idea. Sigh can't do this one either.

So now I have thise idea of putting gift wrapping the bottle in glaciers (the water source is from glaciers), like those cool graphics where you shop the desired image onto some other surface, ie glaciers onto gift wrapping paper. Sounds good enough right, but I don't freaking know how to! I downloaded gimp, thinking I could somehow work it out how to do it on there but I ain't getting no where. So now I'm doing it old school. I'm printing all my images out and pasting them by hand then scanning it back to the computer to submit it.

Don't laugh!

So now instead of cropping tools, paintbrush and fill tools, I have to use glue, scissors and pencils.


I'm so not going to win this thing... :(

Le premier

This is the third time that I've started a blog. The first one was a sad attempt for attention (boy, was I looking in the wrong place. How was I gonna compete with millions of people for affection on the internet? Deleted it the next day after no comments. ha, wasn't too surprised)

The second one was actually a task that I had to do for work (XXX city library, you're so cool!).
we were learning about web2.0 technologies at work and we had to create a blog and document our tasks. That was pretty fun.

This time, I'd like to think that I actually have something to offer to readers or imagined ones anyways. Haha

Anyways, I'm not sure how much self intro I'm suppose to do, so just read the about me section or my profile or whatever it is...

ps: about the title, lingot is french for ingot, gold bars apparently. I found it just coz it sounds cool with my name. hehe